I Just Needed to Realize it Wasn’t Me

The feeling of relief...

peace....

knowing you made the right decision... 

for you

#Priceless

December 23rd, I acted upon a want.
For a long time, I have wanted to get my nose pierced.

Well... I did it!

Yes, it hurt.  The 2 seconds it took... hurt.
Yes, it was a rush decision.

I felt the satisfaction of knowing I was able to make a decision with full support of my husband.  I didn’t have to beg him for his permission.
I didn’t need to write some stupid letter explaining why I wanted my nose pierced.  

I wanted it... I did it... and then I began to regret it.  Why?

I found myself looking in the mirror... hoping with each new glance I would look prettier or at least how I imagined I would look with my nose pierced.

I began thinking about my reason why....
Why did I want my nose pierced to begin with?
How would I rationalize this decision when others asked me about it?

My ink has meaning.
I look in the mirror and it is apart of me.
With each new look, I don’t have to hope it will look as I imagine it.
The lines, colors, and placement are ALL apart of me.

This was different.....

 ....And now it is gone.

My "Take Aways" from this experience: 

Wants are definitely not the same as needs

Just because you can doesn’t mean you should

This experience serves as another example how he will always support me in my choices. 

In 2020 and years to come, I hope when something does not feel right, for me,

  I want to be just as quick to discard it. 

And when it was gone....

I looked in the mirror...

And the reflection in the mirror was as I remembered & I smiled.